lifeless soul leading

I'm so freaking tired, always not enuff sleep. So tired to be online. My eco package has not finished yet. I reallie do slow =(, is my 1st time doing it. Excuse lar! Now I'm so sick of looking @ computer screen, makes my eyes tired. But I still forced myself online bio & blog awhile to relieve my stress. Yesterdae I already feel my left eye not comfortable but I still wear contact todae, make my left eye more sore. When I feel stressed, I don't eat. I did not eat my lunch n maggie mee for dinner. My mum said I seem to be thinner within these 2 days. Really bo? I think not very gd not eating, very unhealthy somemore stressed, always pull a super longggggg face. 2dae ade kip on imitating me, she will be away to australia for 3 weeks. Wah, superb busy. Without her, should be quite sianz n lost.

Going to have a chalet soon with my company peeps, shld be quite fun... Tis time include other departments also. The chalet is like a bungalow, is big n gt 3 rooms, i think. If not many pple staying, maybe I staying. Changi abit too far from jurong. They still got a theme for dat, hawaii theme. Must dress like u r in hawaii. Wat shld i wear?!?

I'm thinking is this what I pursue? Feel so tired n aimlessly. This is really not the path I want. A degree nowadays seem a "must" nowadays. Instead of downgrade, must upgrade... I yearn to be a student again. I missed the days except for exams. Hehe...

Tmr meet my sec sch peeps, suddenly feel like staying at home. Cos too bothered with my work. Feel so retarded using ProE, argh... But tmr we nid to pass her belated pressie from march till now, So long sia, they still haven gave me mine. Tmr 2gether ar? Lolx. All seem so busy n very belated birthdae gifts but at least we still remember one another. So long did not mit together, dunno will feel weird or not. I've quieted down alot in gatherings, Siyuan gp, sec sch, poly & pri sch. Not as enthusiastic as b4. Last time I will organised outings for my sec sch, now became quiet down.

I gtg n koonz liao. I think I will try to bear until end of the yr. See how 1st. Duno can tahan till dec or not. N I planning to learn driving next yr. =)
I want to study ECH!!!! I want to cycle with Donut, hope after dat she will not have phobia. Haa...

*Basically my brain cells 98% shut off liao wen I'm writing. Pardon me for blabbering...

+ La-la-la mood +

Just bk from phuket, is fun with my colleagues & the weather is damn hot... B4 the trip, nt close wif CH & BT, now can joke along... The beach r nice, the sand is soft & there r alot of fishes in the water. I feel morning & noon, is like a dead town but once it turned to dusk, all the night owls start to come out & very happening. Saw some ah guaS, at times dunno is it a gal or guy. Haha... We took a pic with one, and he claimed tips from our ah jie, still asked her put $ in her boobs, gary & voon tio harassed by the ah gua. Ke lian de ta men, tio molested on their buttocks.

The run is goodddd, he accompanied me run all the 10km. To him, is an easy run.. He can run & took pics of me, himself & surroundings... I told him u no "lasa" rite, he said ya. Normally, he will end ard 1hr or plus abit. Actually, he can run with the others for 21km, i dun mind run along. Maybe not so motivated without him, without his encouragment... =) He dun allow me to drink so much water, stopped n we encouraged each other, how much dist. left.

The fd is nice, the tom yum soup does not look sour & spicy but when u drink it, is shiok lo. I did not buy many things over there. N i first time went snorkelling, is fun though I drank alot of seawater 2. Somemore the water kip on seeping into my goggles, so damn scary coz i wear contact lens.
The overall trip is funnn, though everytime nid to wake up early esp. for our run. But indeed is a fulfilled one. BT still jioed me next yr come. Initially, me thinking the run quite ex, after dat realised include buffet. Hehehe... Quite worth la.

Phuket is more like a relaxing resort. Next time feel like going to bangkok, chiang mai. Heard bangkok is a shopping paradise. Big wOw for dat place` Realised that long time did not go overseas with my family, really long time le. Either i went wif my frenz or mum went her frenz. N bro staying in sg. Next time must plan for a trip we all can go together, can relax & enjoy. (",)

Yesterdae went ecp cycling, long time did not cycle. So scary down the slope, gt a phobia last time fell down b4. Tis time i mustered up my courage, rach said i very funny. Coz when she is toking to me, i'm concentrating in front. She still can lobang donut, not bad har! I still want to buy a bicycle with a basket to cycle, with donut. Wat a coincidence, Shuli saw me while I'm cycling hard concentrating in front. I heard gt a person called me 'Shuhua' several times but I dare nt turn, in the end kip on cycling. Den she followed me behind n said me, hahaha... Rach said all the way in front, she heard someone calling my name loud & clear. But is fun la, shld have organise tis gathering with sec & poly gathering. If they dun mind, i cycled too slowwww....

excited

I can't slp noq still left 4 1/2 hrs to wake up. I nid to catch some golden sleep or else tmr panda eyes. Quite excited to go phuket. For the 10km, abit worried. He said he will tag me. =)

I've cleared my photos in my cam. I can take 1100+ photos. hehe... Tmr still nid to put toothbrush, facial cleanser, comb , specs box & rubber band dat's all. Yeah, tmr wearing jumper & cros slippers.

I hope we will safe n sound, no need to be quarantined when back... today spent abit of $, like this how to save. haiz, but once in a while must pamper myself. Gtg n sleep liao.

Looking forward to banana boat, durian, shopping n beaches.

a dream does it reflect one's thinking?!?

Yesterdae went for a slow jog ard my neighbourhood. Bought strawberry milkshake & french fries for my dinner. Aww... i eat more than i exercise. Shit~ I'm thinking, pple may tink i must be crazy... as a gal run at nite, but i run along the roadside n somemore i prefer nite run. So heck care la... but i saw some guys running too.

Have bought 'Ming zhong zhu ding wo ai ni' and 'wo de yi wan mian bao' vcds. I bought mzzdwai vcd coz dat time mum saw me watching. I told her very nice n inside the show, got a very mini maltese. She said she want to watch, so i bought for her. The other show 'wo de yi wan mian bao' is i want to watch, lin yichen n zheng yuan chang is inside, somemore so cheap now. Though i saw you-tube 1st episode quite bored, maybe subsquent episodes will be nice. Nvm la, got them. hehe... but if not for the offer, i think i will not buy. Have told jy n she want to borrow from me too.

2dae very qiao, 3 of us r on leave 2dae. Mum said she wan to go swim, i aso thinking to jio her go swim. Borrowed gym card from co. but haven use yet. Thinking to go both, mum said will be very tiring lei. Somemore onli entitle for 1 pax.
Planning to book a chalet @ Pasir Ris for didi's 21st birthdae. Long time did not go for chalet, planning to ask my relatives come. At the same time, aso can be family gathering. Seems so excited, need to book early or else fully booked again. Didi gt mentioned he prefer 2 storey chalet, more ex by $50+. The coastal sands resort remind me of my nursing times...

Phuket trip is coming... not very looking forward. Maybe thinking to run, i scared next day hard time waking up. After the passion run, we gals not so 'gian' in running maybe due to the sun. I scared got freckles n reallie can get heat stroke if not enuff water. The guys still so 'on', kip on jio us Safra run. We 3 gals scared liao. I told them Standard Chartered Run I 'on', coz the Adidas tee is nicer. Dunno y he out of the blue said, not fun without me. Makes me happy for a moment but i did not show out... =) N hor next time i will not join run in ecp, so squeezy prefer city hall there, wider roads n can see the structure of IR. I'm thinking if really wan to run, can run on our own. No need to sign up runs though will be motivated in a way. But i prefer nite run. I missed sun-down marathon, sianz....

Must save n scrimp liao, recently alot of my colleagues' birthdae. Pocket burnt~ I feel dat i willingly to spend on donut than on me. There are some on my wish list, a pair of running shoes n bicycle, i can't bear to buy lei. But donut vaccination, i not so xin tong. Maybe knowing dat, she will be more healthier.

Weird, it has been long time since i dreamt... I've got over it n get on fine with my life. But in my dream, i still yearn to chat with him. Kaoz, dun let it spoilt my beautiful Mon. Yeah, 2dae no work.